I don’t remember when it happened. It wasn’t sudden but it is now recognizably deliberate to become a habit. Whenever starting any new (or unfamiliar) endeavor, I often read about ideas floating around how it is being perceived or executed upon before I delve into it myself. I find myself wanting to immerse in the universe of what is available before I execute. The problem is, I never reach satisfactory execution because I constantly end up searching for refinement or humbling myself into thinking that I am not worthy of starting it in the first place. So there will come a perfect time when I am ready to start armed with everything I know about that said endeavor.
But why can’t I just start?
I think it’s because when you infuse yourself in different fields you wrestle with two thoughts in your head all the time.
The first is creativity is stifled when you look at the amazing things that have been produced by people after YEARS of dedication to the endeavor. I end up thinking I’ll never be good enough. Never be original enough. Never be enough to start. That is a rationalization for fear. Not laziness.
Everything we see today has been improved upon. I can’t recall whether it was Steve Jobs or Sam Altman that mentions this but it goes along the line of
Everything you see today can be made better. Think of the first product that you thought was magical. It always improves over time.
This is true of the iPhone, this is true of the Apple watch, this is true of the microwave you have in your house. Everything can be made better but the effort that goes into it cannot be measured. The only thing you can control is the flow. How much you put in and how much you don’t.
There is no perfect time to begin.
Action over time leads to evolution. Even moss and fungi get better with evolution. It is natural. And the ones that don’t survive are reborn or extinct. These are two thoughts that I have been thinking a lot about.
The second thought is what, to begin with in the first place? What are the foundational blocks of what you are pursuing? How do you learn enough to move but not know enough to follow a set path?
There is no perfect time.
It is a lesson I learned in the last few weeks. A middle path between enough information and appropriate action. You start with understanding what’s around. What have people done. You work on the skills required to create the fundamental expressions confidently and then you start expressing and creating. It isn’t easy and if you are like me you’ll find reasons to not do but remember
There is no perfect.
It is important to begin. Learn while on the go. Build the parachute after you jump off the cliff. There are lots of startup bro flexing lines you can fill yourself with to inspire yourself with and motivate yourself but it is important to begin. I know of no other way than immersing myself in multiple things at the same time. So it is gym meditation cooking and reading altogether. One habit at a time is difficult for me because I will start searching for what has been done and immerse myself in this. But I have started to talk to myself and tell my being that there is no perfect time.
There’s this strange thing that happens with video games and sports. The more you play a video game, the more interested you become in the sport behind it.
It began with playing FIFA for me. FIFA is a football video game published by EA Sports. The real football don’t @ me.
I played quite a few games and once I got the basic controls in the game down (shoot, pass, lob etc), I started noticing subtler things like position, strategy of attack, player and team formations, passing ability, shoot percentages etc etc. I still haven’t learned all of it but I just realised the depth of the game. Just like the depth of the sport.
I think that fascinates me. Every game/match I play there’s something different going on. It’s remarkable how playable the game is. Every attempt at a game is an opportunity to do something new and different OR get better at what you were doing in the first place.
There’s another game we play just as much. Life. Resources, strategy, planning, compromise, bets and opposition are all elements in it. I wish to explore this gaming thread about what video games can teach you about Life without devolving it into a listicle.
I used to blog a lot. I used to blog quite decently too. It wasn’t till my brother shared this old post of mine with me that I realized a truth that Fred Wilson, aka the AVC, shared.
I started this blog for one reason – to blog. I had no preconceived notion of what that meant. I had no idea what that meant and I had no idea who or what my audience would be. So for two and a half years I have written a blog that was aimed at various times and various places
For years I have not been writing because the expectations were too much. Being around people who undermine you and ridicule you constantly but don’t praise any of the good you do added to that. Till I read that and realised that it’s not about pleasing the audience. It’s about creating something you have a unique talent and a singular voice in.
The eventual goal of all this blogging is to get this feeling.
I feel incomplete until I write something. Often it’s hardly worth hitting the “save” button. Sometimes it’s good. Once in a while it’s great. But it’s a routine and one I cherish. – AVC
I haven’t found a rhythm or pattern or daily schedule to stick to but I plan to do that today. This newsletter business seems to have caught on and everyone’s doing one. It takes years but eventually you need to be in tune with the medium you like and enjoy the most. That medium to me, right now, is writing.
Years before I had karthickgopal.com. I had it set up and registered with a guy who did coding. Big mistake. It was a hard lesson on why you shouldn’t outsource your identity and writing to someone else. I used to be big on Facebook with a lot of reach and content before going AWOL. I never picked up on Twitter even though I actively use it. But I have come to realize that algorithms, while great for reach, cannot replace your personal taste and preferences. They also cannot help you think better. It’s easy resharing memes and hitting that RT button. But it doesn’t make you better.
Writing does. Having an opinion and presenting that to the world can be achieved in many ways. The one that’s intuitive to me is writing. This is the remembrance of muscle memory. It is the re-discovery of what I thought was a creative endeavor that I could achieve without needing to spend years learning how.
But it is an attempt to learn creative curation. I don’t know what that means yet, just that I like the sound of it.
This space is an attempt at that. Expression without the Damocles sword of public opinion. Areas of current interest are video games, movies, psychology, and technology. Sprinkled with marketing and design that I do for a living.
I resurrected this idea of a blog on my mother’s birthday the 17th of December. I hope to see you in a year’s time with more friends.